Currently.

Am I not in the right path, or am I not being profusely grateful?

Keep telling people yes you can but deeply, I am the one who is shaking. 

I feel complicated that I know, only Allah can describe me for now.

My life is miserable. I don't feel contented as before. I don't feel like being me.  

I am not a well-organised person anymore. 

I am  not the one who'd be worry for passing my sleep time. 

I am not the one who'd love to ask rather than studying alone. 

I am not the one who'd care of comprehension rather than plainly mesmerizing. 

I am no longer a person who'd just keep continuing studying rather than complaining. 

I am no longer as positive as I 'd believe and confident  in what I'm doing much.

I don't feel like living. 

I jsut hate myself for now.