Hoping, waiting.

I don't know. I don't want to feel hopeless. But every words around seems so, like no bright future in front. They said, first sem is the easiest. He said, it is up to me. Yes it is up to me. Got to get 3.9 for this sem, which I don't know how it will be yet. It is hard, no reference. I don't know. I'm waiting for something, something I can rely, hope, and trust on, something that can hold my future to the brightest end ahaha what I am saying I don't know. A bit crazy. I hope they will do something. I DON'T KNOW. Gundah gulana tak terkira.

Aku tau aku salah. Tak study sangat dulu. Tapi untuk final, aku struggle lah jugak. Walaupun tak kuat. Untuk keputusan tu, aku tak salahkan sapa2. I don't like condemning people.Yang penting IMPROVE. Improve man! Kena jumpa lecturer for most of the time, kena stay back in library which I never imagined I have to. Well I need references to rely on pleaseeee people do understand me. I know no spoon feed anymore but at least you give us some guide. Huuuuuhhhhh I wish to be a six-year old little girl, who just have to learn about colours, name of animals, minor verbs, doa, etc which I know, will never happen.

"Tuhan tidak akan mengubah nasib sesuatu kaum kecuali mereka mengubahnya sendiri."

Except for death, partners, and sustenance.